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ominously forewarning me, grabbed me on the way home from school to steal a kiss. Indignant and incensed, I told my mother, who called the school. Well, the school official guessed that I was the one who had been the aggressor, considering that one incident made me incorrigible. http://wiki.jsocunit.com/index.php?title=all-agree-they-have-the-right-to-be-bare-at-proper-times-and-places-whether-in-i determined to believe them. I can not entirely blame my Mom here, because in kindergarten at a different school I ran a "witch gang" of girls who caught the boys for me to kiss. The teacher, the principal and my parents believed we were horrid, but it was crying great pleasure at the time. However, when a worse position appeared two years after this fifth grade kiss, it never occurred to me to tell anyone because I 'd burned an important bridge Unintentionally. What happened is this: two boys, Jack and Britt, ages 15 and 14, came to my house early one morning when I was alone and still in my shortie pajamas. I had opened the door because my Buddy Peggy had just phoned to say she was coming over. (Jack was her boyfriend, and Peggy liked to draw pictures of dick, presumably his. Drawing them with her was another instance of curious indifference on my part.) Jack and Britt had seen before, so although I was uneasy about it, I let them in and started off to my room to get dressed. But they followed me down the hall. Jack caught me from behind, wrestled me to the floor, put his hand between my legs and http://wiki.imperhost.ru/index.php?title=FKK-Describes-Whats-it-Like-To-Be-A-Fkk-a froze at that minute. Britt, standing over us, said, "Hey, she enjoys it!" I believe my Clear and extreme mortification was what stopped it from going any farther. But it went far enough to really efficiently short-circuit the link between my genitals and my brain for several years. When I lost my virginity, I had to inquire, "Is it in yet?" and I don't think it was only the large amount of booze I Had consumed that had dulled my senses. A few years afterwards another fifteen-year-old boy tried much the same thing with me, but this time on the Footpath of a deserted road at night. Having already been desensitized, literally, it was much less traumatic. Better still, I had the enjoyment of Capturing him myself, with a tiny bit of help, and presenting him to the authorities. So, how in the world was I Competent to become a naturist? Well, if nudity were mostly sexual, or somehow asexual or anti-sexual, or less than invigorating and joyful, I probably never would have. And if I hadn't needed revolutionary change in my life I probably would have gone on as I was, but more slowly. As it was, I coped and made progress. By the time I was thirty, I 'd finally beat shame and frigidity to the point of having the capability to completely enjoy sex, as long as my partner illustrated he could be trusted unconditionally. This meant that sex had to be taken rather seriously. My first marriage had failed, partially for sexual motives, and in between was black. The girl who ran witch gangs and experiments wrote dry as dust computer programs, wore suits, talked little, and dreamed too often of spiders and 15-year-old lads and their grins. Well, I managed to locate someone I could trust and love, and did so for a few really joyful years, until he died suddenly of a heart attack. The grief overwhelmed me for quite a while. And then a good buddy -- a jolly, bearded guy who organized the After hours shifts of co workers who babysat until I was prepared to leave for my empty house -- encouraged me to visit a place in the Santa Cruz mountains called "Getting In Touch." This was aa massage school and naturist retreat, now defunct. And this was where I started to mend, partially because I had to, and partly because the environment made a start practically inevitable. My first visit was for a weekend massage workshop. I arrived early and there was no one available to show me about or get me oriented. I was perfunctorily seen to the locker room and invited to relax a while at the pool or hot tub. I believe not making a big deal about it, presuming that I could manage getting nude in public for the first time with no guidance, actually made it simpler than otherwise. I stripped down, alone in the locker room, stepped out the door and Wham! Two blink of an eye miracles: no part of me was broken up from another and the breeze in my pubic hair tickled deliciously! I wished right then that I hadn't made a point of having my legs waxed, another new experience, the day before. This felt so good, with no intimation of shame whatsoever, it was simple to dare the next move. So I traveled around the building and took the long, long walk across the yard to reach the pool. When I got there, I noticed one young man nearby in the hot tub, not looking my way. Up to now so great. But then there was the issue of making the transition from a standing posture to a reclining posture on the couch. And not knowing what was satisfactory. I mean, there are rather inscrutable rules about not displaying some of our clothing -- our panties -- when we are dressed, so maybe there were equally inscrutable rules about not showing some of our bodies while naked.