COCAINE

1. DRUGS MARIJUANA COCAINE EXTACY HEROIN INHALANTS LSD

2. What will YOU do? NO!

3. EASY, RIGHT?

4. -This party is awesome! -Hey, swallow this pill. Between the booze and this, you’ll really be havin fun then! Woohoo!

5. -Ugh! He is so hot!! I would do anything to go out with him!! So he smokes. Doesn’t mean I will… Come on, baby,- just take one hit. If you love me, you will try it…

6. -The popular crowd… I can do what it takes to be popular! -C’mon, do a line… you want to hang out with us, right?

7. NOT AS EASY AS YOU THOUGHT?

8. One wrong choice could affect you and the people that love you for a life time…

9. Meet Kyndall She made the wrong choice

10. From the pages of Kyndall’s journals…

11. It all began with just a little taste.If I had known then what I know now, my time I wouldn’t waste. It progressed into something awfulthen I did things truly unlawful. I sold drugs, I robbed, and I stole.I didn’t even know I was digging my own hole. At the time to me, it was all just fun.I was also in denial of what my life had become.The things I have done to get the next high.I felt like Superman, unstoppable, ready to fly

12. June 9th, 2002 Today is my last Hoorah! At least I pray it is. Tomorrow I go get an evaluation done in order to go to rehab. My probation officer is making me, although, I choose to go anyway. So, I hope everything works out well tomorrow..

13. June 15th, 2002 This evening, me and Ken took a ride to Kensington to cop. While there, some kid smashed the back window of Ken’s work van. I feel bad about it. I feel like it’s my fault that I bring Ken into my world. My world of hell.

14. A Tiny Wish When I go and look at myself I start to wish I had all the worlds’ wealth- But I began to realize that in my addiction All I was wishing for was death and dereliction To be clean is all I wish and my addiction to be demolished Some higher Power, help me with this And please grant me this one tiny wish

15. September 26, 2002 I wasn’t afraid to die. I felt so depressed and hopeless that I didn’t care if I died. Some nights, I would pray to God not to let me awake. I thought I deserved it.. Me and my boyfriend each used to carry a gun and I drove him to the spots where he would get out and put the gun to the dealer’s head and rob him. I don’t think he would’ve shot him. He just wanted what he wanted. Something can go wrong. It’s a risk you take. I mean, I can’t dwell in the past but also I can’t forget where I came from. I have to keep it in my mind for every time I want to get high. Every time I want to get high, I just think back to walking the streets…

16. Till Death Do We Part Author Unknown

17. So now little man, you’re tired of grass, LSD, Acid, Cocaine and Hash. When someone pretending to be a good friend, Said I’ll introduce you to Miss Heroin. Well, honey, before you start foolin with me, Let me inform you of just how it’ll be.

18. For I will seduce you and make you my slave, I’ve sent stranger men than you straight to their grave You think you could never be such a disgrace, Then you’ll end up addicted to poppy seed waste.

19. You’ll start by inhaling me one afternoon, Then you’ll take me into your arms very soon And once I have entered deep down in your vein, The craving will really drive you insane.

20. You’ll need a lot of money, (have you already been told) For darling, I am much more expensive than gold. You’ll swindle your mother for less than a buck, You’ll end up an animal, vile and corrupt

21. You’ll mug and you’ll steal for a narcotic charm And only feel content when I’m deep in your arm. One day you’ll realize the monster you’ve grown, Then solemnly promise to leave me alone.

22. If you think that you’ll have the mystical knack, Just come on and try getting ME off your back. The vomit, the cramps, your gut in a knot, The jangling nerves screaming for just one more shot.

23. The hot chills, the cold sweat, the withdrawal pains Can only be eased by my little white grains. There is no other way, no need to look, For deep down inside, you’ll know you are hooked.

24. You’ll desperately run to the pusher and then, You’ll welcome me back to your vein once again. And when you return for I have foretold, You’ll ultimately give me your body and soul.

25. You’ll give up your morals, your conscience, your heart, And then you’ll be mine, Till death do us part.

26. WHAT DID DRUGS DO TO ME? October 2nd, 2002 Drugs robbed me of my spirituality. Drugs stole my ambition from me and made it harder to reach my goals. Drugs gave me feelings of hopelessness and helplessness. Drugs tried to convince me that I was worthless. Drugs ripped me of my self-esteem and respect in myself. Drugs made me feel weak.

27. WHAT DID DRUGS DO TO ME? October 2nd, 2002 I’m not going to lie when I say, ‘I love to get high’, but I hate the consequences that follow it. That quick rush is definitely not worth what it does to you in the long run. Your life eventually revolves only for it. You take it and then it takes you. You use to live and you live to use. You then depend on it on a daily basis just in order to function. Your freedom is now diminished. It robs you of your sanity. I did things out there that I never expected to do…

28. October 16th, 2002 In past recoveries, I’ve always remained hopeless and eventually relapsed. I never wanted to give myself a chance before. But today I am giving myself a chance because it was given to me yet once again. I now believe I am worth that chance and may never be given another one.

29. A life of healthy, sober living does not simply begin once treatment has stopped. In most cases, the process may last years or even a lifetime. Recovering addicts must prepare themselves for a life-long struggle with drug dependency and be mentally fit to meet all the challenges they may be confronted with along the way to staying sober. Relapse is a relatively common occurrence for patients who have completed one form or another of a drug rehabilitation program. It is the term used to describe a recovering addict who resorts back to taking drugs before completing a full recovery. Certain major life changes such as a divorce, loss of employment or the death of a loved one, as well as a series of smaller, often trivial stressors, can lead to a relapse. Because no rehabilitation program can be deemed a success when an instance of relapse has taken place, the addict may be required to undergo a short or long-term treatment program all over again depending on the severity and frequency of the relapse. Still, because relapse is a relatively common obstacle on the road to complete recovery from drug addiction, it should not be regarded as a failure on the part of the addict. Whether it takes one, two, three or more tries to live a life completely free of drug dependency, the long-term goals of the rehabilitation process should not be abandoned as a result of a temporary relapse.

30. But sometimes a relapse isn’t temporary… Sometimes you only get one or two tries…

31. December 1, 2002 Drugs are nothing but evil. At first they convince you that they are your best friend. Then they stab you in the back. Addiction is the one disease that speaks to you, lies to you, and steals from you.  They have robbed me of Everything!

32. Kyndall Brooke Znidarsic March 14, 1980 – September 7, 2003 Age 23