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HAPPINESSISNOWHERE. There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her . She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend . .
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There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. • She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. • She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. • Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. • Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying: “before these eyes were yours, they were mine.”
At one stage, he was asked, “Do you still struggle with the devil?” • “No,” the monk replied. “I used to, but I’ve grown old and tired and the devil has grown old and tired with me. • Now I leave him alone and he leaves me alone!”
“So your life is easy then,” he was asked. “No more struggles?” • “Ah, no,” replied the monk, “its worse. Now I struggle with God!”
I am such a failure. And it is ridiculous for me to say that I can still become a priest. The truth is Staying in the seminary will just get me frustrated. So I never believed that I can cope with all the demands asked from me. My friends tell me God will provide.
But that does not explain everything for me, I am certain that I would always be unworthy to become a priest. God does not really care. And I would be lying if I said There would always be somebody who is going to stay in times of great difficulties. I must not forget that
God, as God, does not need to help me. It is not wise to surrender myself to the idea that God works in mysterious ways. Things are getting more and more difficult for me as a seminarian.
And I refuse to think that God loves me. It is very evident, God is not doing anything to help. It is impossible to say that FAITH IS WHAT I NEED.