Ibogaine in psychotherapy

1. Ibogaine in psychotherapy • A case study • ibogaine therapy uk

2. outline of treatment • assessment • pre-ibogaine therapy sessions • ibogaine therapy • post- ibogaine sessions

3. assessment • date of assessment 20.3.8 • 44 yo single male lives alone • physicist • reason for assessment: • had seen Tribe • neglect • emotional trauma

4. to address • desire to open up spiritually • break through “armour” keeping him separate • why are we here • has things to do • his “unfolding” • sadness, not deserving • feeling stuck, free himself for better things • using energy in a positive way

5. phenomena • feeling a finger on skin • seeing faces and beings • hearing his name.smells • seeing hand through coffee mug • floating patterns, lights and colours • butterflies, spiders • bells • electricity, humming • shaking

6. background • parents abusive alcoholics, • never felt appreciated, nasty to him • older non-identical twin, 3 siblings • parents violent to each other • left home age 21

7. relationships • heterosexual • last girlfriend 5 years ago • never committed

8. drug and alcohol • cigarettes from age 13 to 18 months ago • alcohol from age 25, never heavy drinker • no drug history

9. medical history • appendicectomy age 15 • recurrent tightness in epigastrium ?irritable bowel • shaking in legs • no allergies • no medication • past psychiatric history- suicidal ideas from age 4 • father heart dx, CABG, parents alcoholic

10. personality • introvert • happy child, sensitive, shy quiet • stick with his opinions • interests: nature, animals, music

11. comments • I don’t feel self-pity • help me go back. I was a kid, I was murdered. • reorganizing a drawer, re-filing • aware of risks • “ I think it will be painful”

12. review one 4.4.8 • “alright” • met a brazilian woman • can read people • wants to work for himself • patents for inventions • spasm right flank • dream nine 8ft people

13. review two 20.4.8 • something around the corner • optimistic • directors at work are like his parents • wants to work with people • forming space to grow • no fear of taking ibogaine • abdominal symptoms. eyes flickering • colours workshop. saw mediumn • unfolding

14. review three 2.5.8 • looking forward to summer • never had fear. never feared parents • nightmare, albatross, water on face • earliest memories • in photos always looking up

15. review four 16.5.8 • abdominal pain, humming on/off 5 years • can feel bodies around him • sacrifices in relationships • to use his talents • discussed ibogaine therapy • physical examination

16. review five 29.5.8 • feeling okay • mix of excitement and anxiety • flutter in epigastrium, left chest • humming in torso, legs. • ball of heat left chest • age 7-14 • wizard in the forest • past lives

17. ibogaine therapy 7.6.8 • 1030 ECG normal. test dose 100mg ibogaine HCL • saw medium. wizard in solar plexus • was seeing colours of light, pink mainly • feeling relaxed, little nervous, excited • plans to take next week off, course “spiritual realm” • 1100 feeling fine • 1130 BP 120/80. flutter right leg • usual buzzing in head but stronger

18. 1200 taken ibogaine HCL 1500mg ( total 20mg/kg) • 1215 P 70 reg good vol • 1230 hot flush. P 65 BP 120/80 • 1315 P 60 reg. restless. ++ visions • 1400 BP 120/80 . doing okay. thirsty • 1500 P 60 less restless now • 1600 BP 130/85 P 65reg. thirsty o/w settled • 1900 “heart beating fast”. felt in chest. BP 140/90 P 88 • drinking plenty water, no nausea, vomiting or urination • 2000 BP 120/80 P 70 reg .Some anxiety dehydrated

19. 1230am BP 110/70 P 76 reg. visions decreasing • 0530 white doves. • memories of 1 1/2 y.o. • dogs ,sheep, horses, 200 people, dinosaurs • initially lot of blood and gore • “what if I’d died” “ it was lovely” • 7 people working with him. • 2 girls, old man (Lao Tse), monk, african, indian, other • advice given to him

20. levitation of bed • white cloud • box with white material • bridge of white blanket • traffic lights, lights flying through air • fat lady, thin lady, ends of same thing • father’s aggression • mother aware of what she has done • birds, butterflies, cows, pidgeons • person next to me

22. ceiling • white rabbit • three screens • third eye • games • little bird • world’s population in miniature • USA, China

23. bodily sensations • gel/ substance on abdomen • substance over hands • higher place • body being worked on • telepathic communication • watching historical self without emotion • victim as victimizer • changing his work • writing postcards • trust Lao Tse as guide. trust other humans

24. “it was fun” • “life is an opportunity”

25. post-ibogaine one 13.6.8 • “reborn” • “ best thing i’ve ever done” • “tolerance” • “sense of real purpose” • responding differently • lessons learned • “higher self kept telling me off” • has been adjusted • “only used rational mind”

26. moving forward fast • “baby smiling at me and laughing” • judging and labelling less • wanting to mix with people more • seeing colours, lots of green, ball of green light • the strong pulse in stomach has gone • not self-persecuting, humble, forgiving • connected to other half of self • work: fine about going back • has faith things will come • visions: cave; water not falling on him

27. post-ibogaine two 19.8.8 • talked about changing his career • less judgemental • seeing three women, playing the field, enjoying freedom • wanting to move to south coast • visions: dog on his lap, slim girl long hair sitting with me • wanting ibogaine again • feelings about the old man • chance meeting with a woman called Linda • a

28. post-ibogaine three 10.10.8 • “major progress” • dream in a lake, released something • really wants to be here now since ibogaine and dream • seeing beings and lights • wave and the archangel • sees an old man & a boy • women on hold • work going well

29. post-ibogaine four 7.11.8 • feeling well • discussed job offer • applied to work as carer at local hospice • healing workshops • mediums • patents

30. post-ibogaine five 6.3.9 • inventions and the dream home • healing therapies to others • reconciliation with mother • freedom from past trauma • no issues around water • recurring dream of being at university • did see Linda again but.... • ibogaine still the best day of his life • wants to continue journey in june

31. psychotherapy and ibogaine • powerful, deep experience outside consensual reality • alchemical experience • introspective and cosmic • contact with intelligence outside ego • freedom from past trauma • re-evaluation of his life and priorities • reconnected with the world • peace in himself • unfolding, unstuck • new path for his future