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My childhood had given me so many scars that it was way too difficult for me to stay on the surface. That constant feeling of someone pulling me underwater and choking me was what my personality talked about. You came and my life had a meaning to look up to.
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You left and took a part of me - why you'll be my ultimate choice? My childhood had given me so many scars that it was way too difficult for me to stay on the surface. That constant feeling of someone pulling me underwater and choking me was what my personality talked about. You came and my life had a meaning to look up to. I was a so in love with the feeling of being in love with you that everything seemed normal when you were around. It was like having someone constantly showering the love that one needs to stay in good shape. I started to feel energetic and happy with everything that you did to me. From the day long conversations that ended by saying “I love you so much more” to those tight hugs that made me feel so secure, everything and every minute was
worth the spend with you. Then you left!! You left and took the bright part of me with you. Now I am someone who has never smiled in ages and doesn’t even know how to be happy. Though I smile, there’s always a broken part of it and faking is definitely what I’ve learned. After all, it is impossible to tell the others that why I cannot smile anymore. Why is it that you were the only reason for me being happy? I don’t want to make our love public and let them have reasons to question me - why did it all fall apart. You had your own reasons to walk away and I suppose they were of good interest for both you and me. But, at the end of the day, all I do is sit on my terrace watching the stars gaze down at me and tell me that they aren’t as shiny as they used to be. The moonlight couldn’t brighten up my soul anymore. Well, I have moved on and so has my life but I would always come back to for so many things and you’ll be my ultimate choice till the end of times. When I drive back from work and had a long day with ups & downs, I would want to talk to you about everything. From what’s bothering me to how can I feel better. The best part is when you heard my silence and knew that I felt comforted when you were around - not in physical but the presence was everything that it took to make things okay.
Many times I sit in front of the mirror and take a look myself wondering how am I even going to spend another day without you. You are still there with me and everything about you is what makes another pass by, faking that smile and doing what I am supposed to do. Letting go of you was probably the most difficult task that I executed and it had left me in thousands of pieces which are still waiting to be picked up. Every day the thought of turning back the time to the day when I met crosses my head but then, reality happens. Even today I want you to listen out and kiss me in the middle of the conversation to save me from falling apart. I might have moved on in life and so do you, you’ll always be my ultimate choice love. I wouldn’t think twice of going back to the time when hugging was where my heaven was.